So, every time I have an argument or disagreement with my bf... I eventually ask him the same question each time, "are you really gonna stay when things get tough?". He always says he will. But I don't know I never really feel reassured.
I've not had a very positive experience in my past relationship. My partner was reassuring but one day he just got up and left.
So, what triggered this "are you gonna stay with me?" this time around, we had an argument and I was away for a while. He changed his profile picture from a solo picture to a picture with his mum. I know totally normal. But why did he have to do it while we were arguing? Is he trying to show me my place? That I'll always be second to his mum or something.. I don't know, I feel so.. sad.
Is he trying to pull away little by little from me? Did I act like a bothersome person? I don't like having these many doubts about myself. Gives me panick attacks. I really am tired of feeling this way..why am I never secure in any of my relationships? I'm always afraid of my partner leaving.
It hurts