u/BloodyPaladin

I’d say 95% of the time I am in love with their music and playing something from the discography, but occasionally I get in a mood where everything (EVERYTHING, even the happier songs) make me feel mega sad and I have to stop listening or I feel like I’m falling into a hole. I’d say this happens about twice a year for the last decade. This really doesn’t happen to me with any other band. Drag Path is causing a lot of pain atm despite the fact it’s an overall hopeful song… perhaps because I made the mistake of finally watching the video. I cannot figure out what causes this every time but I have to take a break for a week or so.

I feel bad now. I didn’t curse or scream but I YELLED louder than I ever have at someone before, like my charge was giving me the side eye after. Shift change. Pt screams for help a lot for stupid stuff like “turn my light on.” I had tried EVERYTHING. Boundary setting, calm voice, not going in until they hit the light, pain meds, warm blanket, etc. etc. Security has been called in the past for this. I should have just walked away or perhaps given a PRN antipsychotic earlier but I snapped instead. Along the lines of you’re safe, I’ve done everything I can to make you comfortable, you continue to apologize for yelling and then do it anyway, there are other people here so you need to knock it off right now. The part that makes me feel bad is that they’re not 100% with it, and my volume. Don’t know if I’m gonna get in trouble for that. Not my best moment.