Finally left my toxic relationship (5th time) but found out im pregnant after 2 weeks no contact
I’m having a really hard time going back and forth about telling my ex that I am pregnant after going two weeks no contact now. We dated for 3 years total and towards the end was on and off 3 month break and then 6 month break, and only were able to last coming back together to try things again for 3 months each time. He shows many narcissistic traits and isn’t diagnosed but the relationship would quickly make me lose myself and give all of my efforts into making this work while he couldn’t take accountability for how he would treat me. It was physically abusive when alcohol was involved so that was taken out after trying again, but the emotional and psychological abuse was still there even through his sobriety. I know I wasn’t perfect either but I really did do everything in my power to make things work, therapy for myself, couples therapy even (which he only went to two sessions and then said it was too expensive and it is stupid talking to someone about our problems when it was actually the only time I did see our relationship and communication able to grow), seeking God. I guess I just go back and forth between telling him not because i think it’s going to change our situation and bring us back together but I’m seeking validation that this is heavy and going through it alone and left with the decision on my own and having a hard time navigating it.