u/Blind-Beauty-Busty

My friend asked me to get a meal together and I opened up about my struggles with an eating disorder. I mentioned that I was recently in an IOP. She commented on how she understands how hard it is to want to binge and how she also overeats. I had to tell her that actually I struggle with restriction. Look, I know I’m obese (genuinely considered obese according to my bmi) but GOD it’s embarrassing to be fat and yet be struggling with restriction! I will never be sick enough in this body. I can never tell anyone again because I will just be reminded that I don’t look like I’m sick. Ugh