Feeling Incapable and Unintelligent.
I haven't received a formal diagnosis for 2e, but I feel like I am. I haven't really discussed this subject with anyone in my life because I genuinely feel like it is such a misunderstood concept. I mean, how can you grasp complex subjects that you are immensely interested in but struggle with basic tasks; It's such a fucking paradox. I already know I am neurodivergent because I was diagnosed with ADHD at 5 (I was a WILD kid lol), and I am pretty sure I am autistic as well. Over the past few months, my mental health has been declining more and more. This is because I tend to dwell on EVERY single mistake I make, and I feel like I am capable of so much more. My OWN parents were considering getting me on disability when I turn 18 and I found it shocking that they thought THAT lowly of me; versus LITERALLY just getting me accommodations. I feel like I have an idiot and a genius living inside of me. I can't take it anymore. I'm not asking for help/advice (though it would be GREATLY appreciated), I just want to know if ANYONE relates to this.
PS: Excuse the grammar, it is very late when I am typing this and am close to sobbing.