So, I’m a 24-year-old female. I study at night (night courses) and I work during the day. I used to feel energetic and focused, but I don’t really know what’s happening to me lately. It started after Ramadan.
At work, I’m not performing well. I believe we should work properly to earn halal money, but lately I spend most of my time on my phone. I wasn’t like this a few months ago. I also arrive late to work and return to home early sometimes…
In my studies, it’s even worse. I can’t concentrate and I don’t feel motivated to study at all.
But the hardest part is my salah. I used to be very consistent and strict with my prayers for about 6 years. During this period, I don’t feel like praying anymore. I wake up in the morning and hear the adhan, but I still don’t pray. I make istighfar and seek refuge from Shaytan, but it doesn’t change anything. And when I do pray, I don’t feel khushu’ at all, it feels empty, which is not how it used to be.
I feel really confused and I don’t understand why I’ve changed like this.
Any Helpp? 😭