I think that’s what it means to be a neurodivergent but I’m exhausted.
I keep on branching from one thing to another forgetting how I got there or why in the first place. I keep on constantly forgetting where is my phone, even if it’s in my hand.
My five senses some times are on fire, sometime are not. hearing, touch, smell, sight. Everything can be overwhelming and overstimulating when I have things in to work on or when I just wanna relax.
Also I’ve been hungry wanna eat but can’t bring myself to order something until I’m done with work that I know will take the entire day but I feel like I don’t deserve to eat until I’m done. But for 2 hrs I didn’t do anything because I can’t function out of hunger so I gave up and ordered something.
These are some not all, just micro stuff from today but there is more unnoticed and I’m tired of my self honestly, everytime there is work to do I can’t concentrate, I can only do that when I’m at the edge and everything is crumbling apart. I think my CPTSD with my other symptoms are manifesting in a wired way, it feels like I have everything in the book, I’m just confused.