u/Bigjuicy___

I did not know if I need to censor this so if I do please let me know!

I am 20 afab, and I don't think I've ever been sexually aroused. and I don't think I've ever experienced an orgasm either.

a few months ago I finally had sex. it was with another afab person, when discussing if we were going to do it, I do think I liked the idea. I felt something but it was very brief. and when it was actively happening I didn't feel anything, despite forplay happening. I was on the giving end and this was my first time so I was more worried about pleasing them more than how I felt. and I was okay with that.

I am aromanti, and the thought of being asexual too has never crossed my mind. Even though it's my body and i know what I do and do not feel. I've always thought I was broken because I am young. And didn't have experience.

I do still think I am broken though (this is towards myself and not asexual people) am I asexual or genuinely broken for not even feeling anything at all?

Cw: arophobia and a rant

I'm aromatic, most definitely quoiromantic. And I've been in denial for a long time because I wanted to be loved so much and to love someone so deeply so I would get into relationships and in high school I had this horrible ex. so bad we were very on and off. and I think they gave me heavy commitment issues and something else.

I've come to the conclusion that I am aro and I'm proud of that, but I wish I didn't have emotional issues and I wish I was able to get into Qpr's because loving someone like that sounds amazing but I can't and I hate myself for it.