I just can’t seem to be happy
I’m not diagnosed mainly because I don’t have the money or insurance to see a therapist but normally once or twice a year I go through a long stretch of time where I just constantly break down on the daily in full blown tears and I just can’t seem to take my mind off being down at all it’s started about a week ago now I don’t have many friends I hav my gf we just moved in a few months ago and she’s very supportive and concerns about me o have a very hard time opening up and talking about my feelings I’ve always been very reserved and I do want to talk about it with her I feel an allot physical feeling of something holding me back when I try to talk about it or almost as if I don’t have the words to voice it I just try to keep my mind distracted but I’m really struggling I feel this one was brought on by the thought of death I’ve always been very afraid of death since I was younger and her mother was in the hospital with some very serious meningitis thankfully she’s pulled through and doing better now but she was very concerned for a bit that she may not survive I’m only 27 but I feel I’m just putting off the worry and it always gets worse but I just genuinely don’t know what to do I mainly just wanted to vent and maybe get some outside perspective to maybe give me something I’m not seeing here because I’m just desperate to be better any advice would be appreciated