I’m so dizzy and nauseous from having my period. My head feels heavy and I can’t concentrate. I need to study but I can’t even walk around my room without feeling dissociated from my body, my legs feel weak and I need to lay down again. I hate this shit. I’m not even a girl. I don’t want kids. I just want my uterus removed. Yesterday I cried two hours and had a panick attack because I could feel blood flowing down even though I wore a tampon and I had bad cramps. I told my mother I’m feeling dizzy today and that it’s maybe because of my period and her response was “don’t be dramatic” like what?
I need to study but I just can’t focus, I don’t know what to do I have finals next week. We don’t have any painkillers at home. I hate my body. Why couldn’t I have been amab? Instead I’m stuck with these physical disadvantages and gender dysphoria. I hate my life.