Lack of Identity, Despite many of them
I'm never on Reddit, so I don't know if this is the proper place for this. I don't know where else to go with this, and am curious to hear if anyone else has this experience or has input so I don't feel so alone. I've never met anyone who's felt the same.
As the title says, I don't have an identity, despite there being many in my head. It feels wrong to take their interests and their names because that isn't me as a general. Whatever that is.
For context, I'm just going to assume I'm a default. You know when you're not anyone in particular? No interests, dislikes, no name, no definite opinions or pronouns or anything? Or when you pretend to be one whole for a stranger? Just make a list to tell people of what your favorites are, what your dislikes are (things you don't necessarily mind.)
The thing that bothers me the most is what do I go by? What name do I choose that isn't wrong? Several people know me by something different, and none of them are people in my head. I have 5+ names people refer to me by and none of them feel good to hear. How do you guys cope with that?