u/BigBackground9333

Let's distract from reality for some moment and dream on. Describe what you want in this life, your boldest and maybe even absurd dreams.

I personally want to not worry about rent and food, to have a cheap reliable car to drive around the city and enough money to travel abroad several times a year to see some iconic places and cities and also visit some tropical country to chill beside ocean, swim in the clean blue waters of it and feel warmth of the sun on my skin instead of sitting in my town at winter, freezing every time i go outside and looking at grey skies.

On top of that i want to have like 3-5 friends to have fun and travel with and enough money to support my parents when they get old.

This is what peak life looks like for me. Of course i wouldn't be also unhappy if i had billions of dollars and could do anything, but what i described seems so nice and cozy for me because it's somewhat achievable. I don't have that crazy corporate money ambitions like some people do, i just want to live chill life and seek good experiences instead of constantly chasing money and work opportunities. I'm not completely against having a job, but it should be at least not soul crushing and very time consuming like most jobs.

What's your dream life look like?

I hate the fact that most jobs have 5/2 work schedule. It's absolutely disgusting and soul sucking schedule which leaves you only 2 days for yourself after a long week of work. There is plenty of jobs with 2/2, or 3/3, but those are mostly warehouse/restaraunt/delivery/etc, most office type jobs where you can build good career still implement 5/2, therefore for most people life is absolute misery, because you suffer either way. Want relatively good job, stable career and salary? Go 5/2 and lose your life out of work. Want to have more time for yourself? Get easier job which offers you better schedule, but in most cases will pay you pennies. Or go neet and face every thought in your head.

This thought came to my mind today. When i was like 2 years younger my life was in a complete ruins: i was fat and weak, i was unemployed, no social contacts whatsoever, 10+ hours of doomscrolling a day and so on. Back then i told to myself: i will do everything to live this life good. That i would rather work until my hands bleeding, just to leave this miserable chapter of my life and never allow this to happen ever again. Never. Ever.

2 years passed. And technically i escaped from the worst state of my life, i have a job now, have people to talk, do sports... But all of this feels like a fake facade just to make myself look like i've changed, to satisfy my old self, yet what's hiding behind it is horrible.

It's still a big part of past me hiding there, the bare minimumer. I have a job, but i make a lot of mistakes and they probably will lay me off for that, i'm doing sports, but not enough to get a good physique, i have friends, but not much and still struggle to form meaningful relationships.

That's not what my past self wanted to achieve in those 2 years. Not even a quarter of it. If i was able to look on my life from the past, i would be so angry at myself. I really did the bare minimum in those years instead of growing as a person, and i really dislike that. Despite maintaning this healthy facade i'm still uhcnanged inside, still lazy, undisciplined, stupid, scared of the world and broke. I won't spend my next year like this, i will get out of this mess this time, i don't want to become older and look back on my life in tears once again...