30M virgin and have ED and thinking to go to a prosti*ute
I am 30M, Indian. Very Introverted and Never talked to a girl in life(professionally yes). Didn't even say Hi personally to any girl with the intention to talk.
Weight: 63 kgs Height: 5.5 inch
I also have ED, it started around 25 yrs age. Tried viagra, tadlafil, but doesnt work. Went to multiple doctors but cant find the issue, tried gym, reduced almost 25 kgs. But nothing changed. So I went to a doc, he asked how would I know if I have the issue unless I had sex with someone. I said it doesnt get hard even during masturbation.
My Issues is I always wanted sex since I was like 18, but avoided girls due to family up bringing and thought marraige would happen. I am literally horny all the time. And I cant control jerking off everyday.
I feel like almost all my problems would go away If I had sex once. I had dreams in sleep where I Die and go some place and all I worry is I died a virgin😓.
So thinking about going to a protitute at 30.
But here comes the issue,what if my family sets up a girl for marriage and I would ruin it because, what if she asks I am a virgin or not.
And I am not sure If I should marry without knowing I could satisfy her properly. What if she divorces me becuase of this. I have all these thoughts and is killing me inside.
Since I am already 30, I dont see many oppourtunities for me. Any thoughts on this?