I always thought I had generalized anxiety across the board. I’ve been in DBT for over a decade (I’m now 24) with the same therapist and she recently brought up me having OCD and I totally forgot she diagnosed me with that when I was a preteen. I have always just talked about being anxious and talking about my OCD anxiously. I also have depression.
Since then and her helping me learn more about it, I finally was open to starting medication. I swore off of it forever (ironically, I had a nervous frenzy about it which is exactly why I need it 🥲) and started on 10 mg buspirone, then bumped up to 10 mg buspar morning and night as well as 10 mg of lexapro at night.
I have noticed absolutely nothing with my buspar, truly. But I don’t know if it’s just because my OCD is that bad. I also have PMDD that really makes my OCD flare 2 weeks out of the month. I’m an anxious wreck 90% of the time regardless, but the week before and the week of my period is significantly worse, and completely overbearing.
The 10 mg lexapro has helped my depression. I feel very weightless with my emotions and am just feeling brighter mood wise. But I still have horrible horrible horrible ruminating thoughts 24/7. I’ve heard that to “treat” OCD it requires a much higher dose of an SSRI than it would to “treat” generalized anxiety or depression, so I’m basically asking what your mental health cocktail is. My doctor told me that we can start on buspar and lexapro and bounce around as needed, and I’m not having a bad reaction to lexapro like some people do with figuring out what works for them, but the buspar doesn’t seem to do much of anything. I know everyone’s different, but do I really need that strong of a med? Does it actually help? I am so desperate for any sort of relief.
TIA friends ❤️🩹