u/Bexer_sniper

Hey, idk how to explain what i feel but i feel angry and also hopeful, i was cooking for me and my sister when my dad came in, he asked what was i cooking and before i could answer he left to do something else, i didnt really care much, he often does that, then his friend came in and asked "is the cream working" (i have a skin issue and my dad gave me a cream a few days ago to help it) i answered "idk yet" and she started talking about a cream she bought and stuff, i really couldnt pay attention cause i was busy trying not to burn the food, then my dad WHILE HIS FRIEND IS STILL TALKING comes and asks something that i couldnt understand cause his friend was talking, and then when she is done speaking this dumbfuck of a father asks "did you understand" i was genuely confused on what she was saying, 1 because of her broken speech and 2 because my dad was mumbling over her and the pan was very loud, so i said "No i didnt" and he gets all angry and sh, he says im being disrespectful and that why didnt i understand and i told him "dude i am cooking i dont wanna burn MY food", and he looks at me and talks about how i need to change my attitue and if i don he will send me to military school, let me repeat myself, because i was busy and couldnt pay attention to other stuff, this waste of nut said that he would send me to a military school, completley destroying my social life and mental state, because we recently lost MY MOTHER, she passed away a few months ago and ever since my dad keeps talking about how he wants me to be like HIM and that i am ignorant and that i think im better than anybody else, dude im literally trying to feed my sister something that isnt burnt and you come here thinking you know what is best for me?, i am angry at him for acting like such a douchebag, but when my sister behaves the same way i do he's all soft and dandy with her. My dad wants me to be like a robot, he cant fathom the idea that maybe if someone is doing something and YOU SEE HOW IM MOVING LEFT TO RIGHT to cook, you wait for me to be done then you ask. if anything, he is the disrespectful one here, because he cant respect me working on something. he is not self aware, i am hopeful because of the fact that once i grow old i'll be free to go on and live without having him looming over my shoulder, everyone who knows me, if you asked them what kind of person i am, they would tell you all kinds of good things, because i am someone who respects others and is aware of what i do and say, but my dad doesnt, he still thinks im some ignorant teenager.