Legally I’m not allowed to say much. However, I do have to file another WC claim. It’s annoying. Hopefully I will be able to get the treatment that I need and soon! My other WC claim is going to court. Just when I thought I was almost done with WC…this happened. This is never ending.
Sex is my biggest hangup. I used to use sex as an escape and a way to cope with life. I love the rush, the intensity, and of course the orgasms. I started disassociating during sex and that scared me enough to stop and focus on healing. Since then I’ve been in intense ice therapy and stopped having careless sex. Id have sex with a partner or a fwb but I really cut back on the amount of sex and I became more selective.
Well it’s been a stressful last few weeks. I tried plenty of things to cope with the stress but it felt like nothing was working. I was physically uncomfortable and I didn’t want to sit in the discomfort. So I had sex!! Over the last week and a half I’ve slept with 3 different men (none of them are new—just recycled men. An ex bf, former fling and a guy I’ve been talking to for about 8 months). I almost slept with a 4th guy today (another ex). I’m going down that old path again and I don’t want to. I’m disgusted and disappointed with myself. I don’t know how to stop!! It doesn’t help that once or twice a month I get extremely horny and sex is all I can think about!!
I don’t know how to shake this habit! I need to be stronger than my urges and I’m usually am except when I’m weak aka extremely stress.
When I slept with my ex, I just wanted to be held and comforted—which he did and it felt nice. I miss companionship and physical touch. I know I need to learn how to self soothe.
Any tips? Advice?