How the MoDoc and workers comp left me disabled
On September 12th at 10:45am while working for the MODOC i was running to an incident that had been called over the radio. While running I had felt what I thought was my radio falling out of my holster and hitting the back of my heel. When my foot met the ground once more I felt a pop and extreme pain shot from my heel to my knee. I fell to the ground and began the process of workman comp ( my right foot ). After being taken to the local ER they said there were no injuries they were able to see because swelling may be an issue. I was understanding of this, being that I spent 10 years working in healthcare ( 5 in trauma ) so I was given crutches and sent on my way, my first question was how am I going to drive home? Well when I asked this question I had so many blank stares, and I felt as if I had somehow become mentally incompetent over the course of the last 5 hours. so after managing to drive home in extreme pain I propped my foot up with some ice in bed. The next day I woke up and had to use the bathroom. I thought, maybe I'll try putting some weight on it while sitting down. nope, immediately I could feel in my heel something was extremely wrong, this small amount of weight should not make my foot feel as if it is going to snap in half. So I grab my crutches and wait for the weekend to be over. I asked many fellow co-workers if they were able to bring my paperwork to HR ( since this is my right foot and I'm unable to use it ) no one was able to or no one replied. so I finally went to see the first doctor and his bed side manner was atrocious, along with contradictory statements making me question his knowledge. After putting me in a boot ( that was not the right size ) I asked for a driving restriction. (now in my mind I figured it would be common sense that If im in a brace. and it's my right foot. I obviously am and have been unable to drive. ) but unfortunately I happened to find a " medical professional " that was incapable of using common sense. he looked at me and told me "well I guess you'll have to get used to driving with your left foot". At this point I googled a workers comp lawyer, I didn't know who to call. So I was sent to another doctor. At this point I've been in pain for weeks, and this female doctor was absolutely awful and made it very clear she didn't care, But I finally got a driving restriction from her but she was absolutely awful. I tried to express my concerns of pain and mobility but it fell on deaf ears. I thought, there's no way this could get worse, so at this point workers comp does not want to follow the driving restriction I clearly need, expecting me to pay 6000$ ( 300$ a day ) of my own money to travel to a job that only pays me 2400 a month. I pitched the idea of changing my schedule and having a co-worker give me rides but that was made extremely difficult by administration and HR to the point I just gave up. so now about 5 weeks later I get in to see the foot and ankle specialist. Our first meeting i recorded and he was extremely rude and had no sense of bed side manner, and to me felt like he was trying to intimidate me, after that incident would have panics attacks going to this specialist. he holds my mobility in his hands, I can't afford to go see a doctor, after weeks of asking HR to help me enroll and with no luck or no help i just started working and the next open enrollment wasn't for another month. he continued to look at my ankle even tho I expressed that it was my heel, I began to have neuropathetic symptoms and they've only gotten worse at the time of this post. I did the physical therapy, and was still having the same and now worse issues with my heel at this point. But this doctor continued to be hateful. So one visit, I was over it and then I went for another round of PT. My next visit I just started agreeing with him and smiling through the pain and suddenly his bedside manner changed, he became a somewhat decent person. At that moment I realized he wasn't wanting to help me from the very beginning. So I told him to clear me of treatment. I figured if he didn't want to help me I'm not going to waste my time anymore. I told him " I'll go back to being a cna, cna's dont have to run". From that day to the day of this post ive lost all joy. I walk with a limp now because my foot doesn't work right and it helps with the pain. I can't play with my kids. I can't fish, or mushroom hunt. I can't walk, by the end of my shifts I want to bite a belt and scream. Most days on my drive home I'm almost in tears, I feel trapped in my own body at this point. My hip, my back, my knee are starting to suffer and I just feel no joy is left in my life. I'm tired of always being in pain, I wish my lawyer would have fought harder. I wish workers comp would have just fixed my foot. I just want to be able to walk and enjoy life again.