hey guys so for context i have top surgery in 8 days (yay!?) and god i feel depressed and lost. i’ve had depressive/ suicidal episodes my whole life for numerous of reason but since ive came out as trans i haven’t had one until now. I didn’t expect to feel so heavy after finally living as myself i feel like a hopeless cause.
I’ve wanted top surgery for like forever and up until now i’ve been pretty excited for it but now i feel like i have no will to live. nothing is making me happy i feel like shit im exhausted and i just sit in bed all day and maladaptive daydream or get lost in sad thoughts abt trauma or other bs.
So i guess i just need help guys am i broken? like😂 what’s wrong with me is this normal? has anybody else experienced this? I thought my mental health was improving n now i just feel helpless.