What are some ways to explain these to my spouse that doesn’t seem to get it? I’m working with my therapist on different ways, but I’m also getting to a point of how much more clear can I be. Are they scared of the reality or do they care is a big factor. How much more is it on me to try to get them to understand or even grasp some bits of it.
But maybe if I explain what it’s like in a different way it’ll land.
I’ve even had a moment of specifically stating “I’m having thoughts of killing myself” when trying to describe what I’m experiencing. Yes I acknowledge I was hiding these for a long time and when we sat down to discuss it more I struggled to explain it.
The responses I got were similar to - well everybody has low days or times of just feeling if going through the motions. More of a sense of not hearing me and dismissing what I’m experiencing as I shouldn’t be feeling this way. They were raised in a family with very little mental health knowledge and judgement of the subject. That SI causes you to go straight to Hell. I’ve tried explaining things in smaller less intense bits. But I feel like I’m pushing them away and then it gets brought up that I’m being distant and they just want me to talk to be open to them.
Maybe if I can explain it in a different way they can understand it?