u/BestofBoththings

I don't really know if this is the right sub for this but I'm really confused im 17 and for as long as I can I remember I've wished to be a boy my older cousin even teased me about it recently but when I was a kid I literally used to wish to be a boy all the time when I got older I thought it was because I felt left out among my siblings because growing up I only had brothers but that feeling never fully went away ive been missgendered a lot before and I know its because i look kina masculine but when but when some calls me young man or something i dont like it but i do its i dont like it cause it makes me feel insecure about my feminine looks but it also make me feel good in a way so I was thinking maybe I'm Trans or something but but it's complicated because I like being a girl but I don't at the same time I feel stuck im constantly upset with my body but I don't think it would go away if I transitioned i want to be a boy but somehow still stay girl when I imagine myself as a guy I feel happy but the thought of actually doing it makes me not uncomfortable but scared some many things in my life would change I don't know what to do I just wish I could be whichever when ever I feel like it I hate my body but I don't understand im confused this really isn't fully expaling how I feel but I just need to say something to get off my chest if anyone has felt similar or now what I should please help I don't know im just really confused.