Yea damn... I relapsed. For a few weeks now. But I'm on a level that i can still handle. I don't smoke everyday and usually one joint at night. So there's hope to get back on track!
Now i need motivation and some friendly advice!
I gonna stop today, 5/5 it is ;)
I won't date anymore, i'm done trying. Looks like i'll die alone after all. Everytime i try, someone gets hurt and it's drama and not much nice things to enjoy. Just exhausting. Some positive and sane people gonna say to keep trying but it doesn't make a fucking difference. At the end of the day I'm alone anyways. Usually i dated to fill the void. I mean i really liked the persons i dated even loved them even but i would've left way earlier when i wasn't so desperately lonely all the time. And when i really like someone i'll always end up the broken one and i'm depressed for days. It's not worth it's not worth it it's not worth it. I gonna fucking stay alone - i'll suffer anyways. My wishes and dreams gonna stay unfulfilled no matter what. That way i at least can spare me the frustration.