Coaching... and vent, I guess.
This is a long post, sorry.
I came back from a 6 month short term disability leave in January. Upon arriving back I learned we had a new manager. Mid January there was an incident where the new manager was standing very closely to me, which was very odd. He grabbed my wrist to give him a high five... which made me uncomfortable. I was really nervous to talk to management about it, so I wound up waiting to see the manager I was most comfortable (and could trust) with to talk to about it. He encouraged me to file an ethics case. I filled out the paper and gave it to him. I was never provided with a case number even after asking for it, or much follow up besides my club manager telling me it could only result in a corrective action because the cameras only showed him very close to me, not actually grabbing my wrist.
Things got very tense after, I began being being alienated by almost all of my coworkers. The "favorites" started telling everyone that I'm lazy and don't do anything. I told managers about, even up to the club manager. Things got worse.
I was granted an intermittent leave, which scared me because I felt like things would get even worse. Once again alienated by most, not even able to ask questions or look for input without sparky comebacks... I went to stock and another associate snapped at me about how I wasn't stocking correctly. I became frustrated. I texted my manager informing him that she kept talking crazy to me all day, and I couldn't handle it anymore so I was going home. I clocked out and told her I wasn't sure what her problem with me was, whether it had to do with my absences or whatever, but she needed to mind her own business and lose her attitude, her response was "whatever, go CRY to the club manager" I laughed and walked away. I realize that maybe it wasn't the best approach but I've been taking all of it and trying to ignore it even though sometimes it makes me feel a little emotional and worthless. So often they make me feel so small like I make no difference whether I'm there or not. My immediate supervisor could vent to other associates within earshot of me, but if I ever ask her if she's okay I get responses like, "yeah, I'm just working my ass off" or just snippy, curt responses.
Fast forward to today, I got a DA for respect for the individual because of a supposed member call that heard what I said and called out of concern. During the DA, I was not informed what color I was being coached to and had one manager on the computer while the other sat on the counter by the door. They said the next time I have a problem I need to go to management and I said I have and nothing ever happens to which she responded that, "this is actually tangible evidence." They kept asking if I had any comments to which I kept nodding no. She told me the coaching would not leave the room and I said it would because my immediate supervisor would tell everyone just like she told them about my intermittent leave. I repeatedly got interrupted with, "let's stay on topic". I won't continue, but it ended with her saying, "let's go ahead and get back to work, there's production that needs to be done". I stood up and said that I was leaving for the day because I was left feeling very embarrassed.
People keep asking why I stay, and it's mainly for the money... I have a home, bills, and a child. I feel so lost. I feel like I've become a troublemaker and it was never that way before my leave... I was someone they depended on. They knew I'd get the job done, even if I felt frustrated and overwhelmed.