This photo is looking east from the north Franklin mountain peak. I saw it somewhat close up waking up the trail but don’t snap a photo until I got to the peak. Looks creepy af and it’s in the middle of a military impact zone. Anyone know what it is? Google had no idea what I was talking about lol.
We’ve been married for almost 5 years. The first year or so was great. Since then it’s been bad. And it’s really because of me. I’ve had serious anger issues since I was a kid, went to anger management counseling from 6 to 14. Kinda mellowed out in high school probably from puberty but it came back out as a young adult. My wife and I would get into normal marriage arguments but my anger would come out and I’d say some horrible stuff to my wife. Calling her every name under the sun and honestly just being emotionally and verbally abusive. I didn’t mean anything I ever said I was just so angry and couldn’t control myself and just said whatever I thought would make her upset. I always had like this regret hangover the next day like “why tf would you say that?”. It’s almost like I would blackout when angry and just say horrendous things. I also want to emphasize this was all verbal, I’ve never and never would physically assault my wife (although it’s not really any better using words). This caused my wife to basically check out after about 2 years of marriage. We were still married, never had any discussions on separating or taking a break just kind of stopped talking to each other and I started sleeping in the guest room. During this time no sex, again, not even sleeping in the same room, and on the weekends, she’d go out with her friends and I’d go out with mine. This went on for over 2 years. I’m in the military and I found out a few months ago I would be going on a training even for several months overseas. So I’m now on the training cycle overseas and she’s back at home. A couple months before I left I started going to anger counseling (should have done that a while ago and our marriage probably wouldn’t be where it is right now) and I feel and my wife also said she felt improvements were made. But of course, this was too late, and now I’m away from her for 9 months is a very iffy spot in our relationship. We talked the other day and she admitted to cheating on me with a guy. Same guy, maybe 5 or 6 times during this 2 year lull in our relationship. She told me she was sorry and also thought that I had cheated during this time (which I didn’t) and she even admitted to putting an i tag in my car to see if i was cheating and i guess she thought i was. She said she knows this doesn’t justify her actions and i told her that while it hurts and we were still married, i understand because I was not a good husband and put a lot of mental strain on her. I’m just wondering if this marriage is still worth pursuing? I told her i still love her and I’m still going to counseling overseas because i want to be better for her.
tl;dr: i was an asshole early in our marriage, caused wife to mentally put me to the side and she cheated on me. (I didn’t find out, she admitted it) i want to make it work and so does she.