u/Belegurth062

Since I was a kid, I’ve felt as an alien left behind in a hostile, inhospitable world. I haven’t been happy for six and a half years. I’m a lazy, useless, good for nothing person. I can’t do anything right. New people I know, not even interested in, immediately treat me as if I was a creep and ghost me. None of my careers are viable in my country, and my skills are mediocre at best, so no way in hell I’ll be hired abroad. From all my parents’ kids, I’m the one that’s a failure. My brothers are tall, handsome, have either a job or a promising career… I have nothing. No one. They all treat me as a child, and say it’s not true, but in their eyes I see nothing but disappointment. The one reason I haven’t ended it all is because my mother would be beyond shattered. And I can’t go back to my therapist because (like I said I don’t have a job so I can’t pay for her) the one of my brothers that’s the favorite, she didn’t work for him, so the funds are immediately cut off. Because if therapy doesn’t help the star child, it means she doesn’t work. There is nothing for me in this world.