u/Beginning_Variety597

Nothing is helping my mental health. I’m suffering and I just feel like I’m drowning. Been in therapy for years now. I’ve tried all the SSRIs, they worked for a couple months before I would just go numb and I don’t want that. They also made me gain so so so much weight and that worsened my mental health. I started beta blockers which have been okay for my anxiety but Idk I’m scared to turn them into an everyday thing, mostly used when I have a big day with interactions at work. I was also put on buspirone (going on 6 months now) which I think kinda helps my anxiety but never made me go “wow”, I’ve now been on buspirone with Wellbutrin for a month. Worst 2 weeks of symptoms ever but we’re past that. 4.5 weeks in I have yet to feel “benefits” from this Wellbutrin. I feel broken. Why is nothing helping. I just want to be normal. I just don’t want to be so reactive. I just want to live. What can I do?