I apologize for posting so often I’m just in a really bad spot. I have agoraphobia. I take .5 Clonazepam at 10:30 am and 1 mg at 4 pm. I used to only take 1 mg at 4 pm for about 4-5 years. When I first started taking the med I had similar issues that I have rn. Constantly crying, depression, sound and screen sensitivity, pacing, muscle spasms and insomnia. Eventually it got better after many months and while it was happening I could feel things getting easier.
I was stable on 1 mg for quite a few years, still agoraphobic but not climbing the walls. They upped my dose to 1.5 back in December and since then I’ve had horrible ocd, controlling behaviors, crying non stop during the day. I could still lay down and sleep but started waking up in a panic quite frequently.
This has only progressively worsened these last 5 months…I cry most of the day, push an office chair around in circles in my living room from 8 pm til 4 am. I put a piece of tape over my clock on my phone so I don’t know what time it is because certain times I’m more prone to panic. I’m afraid to sit down due to the muscle spasms and I stay in the same room all night with the lights on because I’m afraid of the dark now.
The nights have become unbearably long and painful. I get a burning sensation in my thigh often. I’ve even peed my pants a few times because I’m so distressed I can’t even walk to the bathroom or kitchen. I feel so broken and ashamed of myself. I’m so afraid and nobody can help me. It does get a little easier as the night goes on and the dose wears off I’ve noticed but even still. I’m constantly gripping the chair in fear.