Avoidant b***** that never came back
I was blindsided with the breakup in October, and ghosted in late november. I could never get to know why she left, what was the problem. But I always knew I was not enough for her. not ever sure if she was an avoidant, or just using or manipulating me considering my worth to be very low in front of her.
I was miserable since November. I tried reaching out twice for closure, because I knew I wasnt enough to make her stay. i felt I deserve one final conversation which never came.
Instead, she posted about my insecurities on her socials, and made fun of me saying I am a clingy ex, who cannot handle rejection.
This is after, I tried reaching out twice or thrice because I did not know I was being ghosted. I had to let her go. Without a breakup or a closure. It was a phycological damage. I always felt I was never desired physically nor accounted for emotionally.
It was a one sided relationship where I only loved the potential. I recommend everyone never date potential her. She never matched her words, took out her emotionally baggage on me. And now she is with someone else in a couple of months after ghosting, making me small and unworthy.
Its been 8 months almost since that day, she broke-up and she now portrays me as someone insecure, emotionally unstable, anxious, angry and not worthy human. She took everything from me. I am so confident I did most of the people on reddit did for their partner(sorry) to only feel used and rejected.
I hate you.I wont forgive you for being this brutal. I wont forget any disrespect. You should have never chosen me if I was not enough, but you did to only use me. I hope there is god doing justice to you.
I hope you meet a person like you. I hope every loved one in your life end up with a person like you. And I wish to god, I can find a person like me.