u/Beginning-Plant-3356

Sending to a family member whom I trust, but I don’t trust customs in my home country (even thinking of leaving a bribe to prevent stealing lol). Nah but I will get insurance and tracking.

To make sure it can’t be used if it goes “missing”, I’d like to log into my iCloud, ship it, and give the receiver my password to log out. I’d subsequently change my password just to make sure.

Is this okay to do? Will the receiver be able fully reset and log out of iCloud/FindMy without me there?

Went out to a friend’s bday party yesterday and actually made a stronger effort to keep up conversations with more people. After years of avoiding long talks with pretty women, it felt nice.

I used to be good at talking and joking naturally and I had many friends in my circle that I considered to be quite attractive, but over the years of porn addiction, talking to women made me nervous, sweaty, and anxious (except for a few friends and my FWB who I’ve known for some time).

For a while, I’d go out and simply look at women from afar or quickly introduce myself and walk away before getting nervous, living with the comfort that I’d get to go home at the end of the night and get pleasure from viewing video after video of women doing hardcore acts. Not only that, but my phone gave me access to AAAANYTHING my perverted mind desired. I stopped seeing women as potential friends and more as means of pleasure.

Last night a lady and I stared into each other’s eyes during a conversation for a while and it started to make me nervous, but I caught the moment and took a deep breath. Crisis averted.

Had other friendly conversations during the party. Over the years, I’ve come to hate myself so much that I can’t imagine people liking me, but it seems I still got spunk lol. I’ll continue to strive for more socialization. One day at a time, y’all!

I’m 29 and healthy. Been watching porn near daily with a few breaks here and there since I was 12 or 13. Binged on hardcore material sooo much during the pandemic and my daily fap habits have been pretty high since then.

I keep trying to fight my porn addiction but I keep falling to simple striptease or solo videos and I edge for a while, telling myself it’s not causing any harm if I don’t finish even though I do end up finishing sometimes.

Frustrated with having softer erections over time and not being able to get hard on demand, I used the blue pill last weekend as my gf (more of a FWB than a serious relationship) and her friend (both quite hot) were gonna hang out at my place and a threesome was at play. We ended having the threesome and I did end up having sex briefly only with the friend, but EVEN WITH THE PILL I GOT HARD VERY SELDOMLY AND FOR SHORT PERIODS OF TIME. They were very patient with me and we still had fun, but I was so frustrated and embarrassed by my lack of performance. Even with great oral, kisses, and girl-on-girl action, I couldn’t get hard most of the time.

I’ve had sex with my gf and other ladies over the years with lots of good experience and some pretty bad ones, but I’m finding it harder and harder to concentrate during sex.

One thing to note was that my gf’s friend laughs at EVERYTHING and a LOT. She was also kind of a jerk a bunch and would make fun of our quirks. So things would get heated, I may start getting a bit hard, and something would cause her to make a joke and laugh uncontrollably, causing me to go full flaccid. They left the room once to go buy drinks, and I watched porn while they left and got quite hard, but again lost concentration and couldn’t perform when things got heated again.

Next night I’m home alone, whip out some hardcore porn, and I get rock hard for a good while. Same thing the following morning.

I’m so baffled and frustrated. Self esteem is very low now. This addiction makes me feel like my performance will only get worse with women, even if I do quit.

Is there hope for me rewire my brain to get more arousal from physical experiences than from porn if I stop PMO now?