I’m 21 with "Level 1" life experience. I want to leave home and become a useful human. Where do I start?
The other day I was thinking about how far behind I feel. Being 21 and all, most people immediately say I’m being over dramatic. But I’m well aware now of how easily I can let time pass me by without accomplishing anything of worth. So if I keep this up, before I know it, I’ll be 25 still living at home with no prospects. That will bleed into my self-identity and it will be who I am then at 30 and 37 and 42. This is what I mean when I say I feel behind. I'm seeing my future based on what I have done with my life, am doing, and feel able to do.
I feel like a newborn babe in a 21 year old woman’s body. This is what happens when you grow up in isolation. When you grow up sleeping. When you grow up fearing the process of learning. But I’ve decided to be so bold as to change the narrative and become a beginner in public (hence the username). So nevermind the age. Experience wise? I'm at level 1. And I'd like to figure out exactly what it is that I should be focusing on so that I can maximize my time in efforts to reach higher levels of experience.
But as an expert in the field of daydreaming, I can tell you that I’m not quite sure where to begin. It's not money I'm concerned with. It's not societal standards either. I simply want to be a useful human in as many areas as possible. That way, when I someday become a wife and mother, I’ll be able to do much more than merely keep my children alive. I want them to thrive. And on a day to day basis, I’ll actually be fit to serve strangers and friends in some capacity rather than always taking and never having anything to give.
So, any suggestions on where to begin? Might help to note that I don't currently have a job. I've applied to caregiving jobs without number and the thing that always gets in the way is the fact that I don't have at least 1 year of caregiving experience. Nevermind the fact that I don't even know if it's what I want to pursue.
There has to be some sort of peculiar apprenticeship type thing somewhere in America. Where I can start with zero experience, leave my home, and become a valuable person. Screw college. I want real world skills. It'd be cool if I could earn money at the same time 🙃