Advice for avoiding relapse? Please
Hello everyone,
I will try to keep this short. I was doing really unwell last year, but I have been eating well and good and bla bla since October, but feeling like I’m teetering right on the edge of a relapse this whole time.
I found out today that my favourite artist who was tortured by the public for his entire life had an eating disorder, and something about already empathising with him and finding out just one more thing we had in common really got to me and now the voice is back, saying how “just for a couple of days” and how “we’ll come right out of it no problem”.
The part of me that’s well knows that that’s not true, but sometimes the line separating me and the voice blurs and I’m worried that I’ll get fooled.
Has anyone got advice for me?
It’s weird how we view this thing through such a heavy tint of rosiness and how I have the capability to convince myself that actually it’s fun and it feels great even though we all know that there isn’t even a way for that to be true.
He lived to his 50s with the disorder that started in childhood, and while I’m aware that it’s different for women, I still catch the voice saying “you could do that”. No I absolutely could not. I will die. And if I don’t die, I’ll be miserable the entire time.