I'm so tired and I don't even know why. I'm 23 and have been a freelancer since i was 17. I am between work right now and cannot seem to do what I need to do even though I know what to do. I always stay in this space because I know something will eventually turn up but that isn't the best way to live.
I want to be able to list out things I'll do and go through with that and need serious help. I've made todo lists, scheduled everything and some days I meet my goals and other days I fall behind so fast. I don't know if it's laziness or I just have an ego and don't want to go out and ask people. I have a house so I definitely won't end up homeless but it's an expense on its own. I am single but also take care of family bills so I have people relying on me. I barely go out or have a social life, I do have friends who I talk to everyday so I'm not lonely it's just an overwhelming feeling of impending doom or dread. How do I get my head right or snap out of this? I've always been willy nilly and all bare minimum but this is just a new low for me.