There comes a point in life where you want to pull for the sake of pulling, I have reached that point and I am sick of it. People around me all have loving girlfriends or boyfriends and I'm just stuck here with jack shit. I tried waiting and it did nothing, i tried changing everything about myself and it changed nothing.
Whenever I see myself in the mirror I feel disgusted by what I turned out to become as a person. Whenever I see a show or anime of people just having people romantically care for them, i want to GENUINELY cry like when I see some guy with a loving girlfriend who cares for him i always think, why not me. I was so desperate at one point, I started liking people who showed me simple kindness. People say that eventually everyone finds love, That's bullshit I am so sick of it. I agree that my not getting a girlfriend is my fault, I am a chud, but I have reached my limit, I don't like this at all, I don't like me at all. I genuinely don't remember when I actually liked a girl and it wasn't because I was desperate. All my life i haven't ever kissed a girl and held hands with a girl, heck i haven't fucking hugged a girl in my life. Ugh I just need some advice, what can I do to get a girlfriend