u/Beautiful-Brain2183

I’m a 29 year old woman, diagnosed at 28. I quit my 40+ hr/wk job in January because of burnout and not being able to get out of bed. I’m eating through my savings, and am in a constant state of panic about employment. I also quit drinking at the same time I quit my job, so I’ve been having to see a bunch of medical professionals. The first thing they all talk about is me needing to find another job. Started seeing a therapist and she said the same thing. I wish people could be disabled and not constantly be reminded that they’re only seen as valuable to society if they have a job. Still, I do want a job, both for structure and money, but it is impossible to find a place where I feel comfortable. I dropped out of college because I was undiagnosed, struggling, and had no support, so I have no degree. I’ve only gotten jobs through people I know, and I end up getting so burnt out at every one that I quit and blow up my life every few years. My special interests are not things that I can turn into a career and my résumée sucks. My social anxiety has gotten so bad that even thinking about doing an interview or walking into a new work environment sends me spiraling and unable to leave the house. I desperately wish there was some roadmap for me to follow because at this point it feels like I’m so far behind I’m just meant to disappear.