Dating a girl with BPD
So I need some help to let go. I got out of an 8 year abusive relationship. I confided in this new girl and we’ve been dating for 3 months. Things feel amazing but I found out she cheated many times. She self harmed like cut herself that I could see once. She slept with her ex and she’s a stripper she fucked 3 men. I feel like she is allowing me to allow things me before would never allow and I’m questioning my disrespect. I feel like we are bonded and have a deep loving relationship with a lot of chemistry and talking together feels really good. She said she did sexual things at times to try to make me stay.
I’ve very afraid of the split. Can people tell me to leave I need help she feels perfect but I’m being stupid. She would block me and I would use a fake number to ask her to unblock and she said that meant a lot to her and she really loves me deeply. I don’t understand why she would block if that’s how she feels. Please help me I feel like she’s ruining my life and I’m debating stripping on top of my normal job cause the money seems good. I got a sugar daddy. I feel like she is effecting my morals and I don’t really recognize myself. Please help me.
EDIT: this isn’t a troll post I was fucked from my last relationship and I just wanted love. I ended things with her just now. Idk how I ignored my gut this much