In the womanhood world, there seems to be this unspoken acceptance that you should be a "girls girl" just because we are women. I'm not sure if it's because im autistic, the way I look (severely underweight due to ARFID) or a racial issue ?
Woman just generally dislike me for existing. I have only had 3 close women friends in my whole life and only 1 remains out of the 3. I have always gotten on better with men because I can relate to their personalities much more. Even in childhood, I was a proud "tomboy".
Im not writing this post to talk down on other woman, just want to know if its a general autistic experience to struggle to connect with other women as an autistic women? Or am I just that unlikeable.
Maybe its also because generally speaking I feel very content in life. I live a simple life and enjoy being a simple person. I explain it like this "imagine eating and feeling full and satisfied, that's what life is like to me whereas for others they are gluttonous and can never fill their hunger void".
I also am aware my facial expressions, do not help the situation as I have a very strong "resting b*tch face".
Edit: without calling it being a "girls girl", I value the safety of other women, not prioritising male validation over your own wellbeing/other women's wellbeing. Creating community amongst women and also holding women/myself accountable for any toxic behaviours. Unlearning misogyny.