Watching a show and seeing someone puke.
Hi! Long time lurker here and today I felt like sharing.
For the past week I've been watching "Love life" and just finished it.
A few times throughout the show some people get sick, but it's like sick off camera and I can handle that.
Most of the time when it is shown on screen, I quickly look away (if I didn't see it coming) and I feel nauseous for a bit.
For about 3 times I think (?), it was off screen and you just heard someone cough or like throw up a little, nothing over the top.
So I was feeling "safe" to watch it!
Now until the very last episode.
I saw it coming that the person was going to be sick, but I didn't look away because I was thinking ; They don't show it so it's okay!
And just as the title of this post spoiled, surprisingly the camera zoomed out and showed it.
She was hanging out of the car window and it wasn't really much or over the top, but it was unexpected for me.
But I didn't react! I kept calm! I was just a little surprised.
And I quickly thought to myself ; See! I didn't die! I didn't get hurt!
Now that I'm thinking back to it, I'm so proud of myself! This is one step closer to recovery! Which I didn't really have in a long time.
So I thought to myself, let's share this with Reddit people who understand.
Now, maybe next time I will react, idk for sure. But that's okay! I'll just keep on practicing with shows for now.
Iknow that there is a site where you can look for triggers. But I don't want to do that. I feel like, for me, it would just get in the way of recovery and I don't want to take steps back.
I'll still watch my safety and comfort shows when I eat though haha.
Thank you for reading!
I hope you have a great day / night / weekend and week!
Sending love 🩷