I wish my mother had aborted me.
My mother had me in her early 20's while still in college, I dont know much about my father aside from that he gave her a fake name and disappeared afterwards, and when she tried to find him she met another woman he had given a fake name to and got her pregnant as well, so he's a piece of shit and I kind of hope he's dead. Having a child meant my mother was forced to drop out of college and abandon the career she had been working towards, and due to my drug addict aunt stealing her identity and destroying her credit the only places we could afford to live were shitty, run down, drug infested trailer parks while ahe struggled to support us working minimum wage jobs at places like McDonald's and Walmart. And on top of all that, I was an absolutely horrible kid. I never listened, I talked back, I never cleaned up after myself, I skipped school and refused to do any homework, at one point I was taken and placed in the foster system for about a year because our house was such a mess and my grades were so bad, and even after she got custody of me back I was still a shithead and made her life miserable.
I'm in my 30's now and looking back I can't think of a single thing I've done with my life to justify ruining hers. She was in college studying to have a career, I barely graduated high school and have spent my adult life working menial labor jobs in factories and warehouses.
Ever since I learned about how I was conceived I've wondered about how much better her life could have been had I never been born. She could have finished college, had a career and a good life and a kid that was worth a damn.