u/Batman___1

I had just gotten out of the shower and gotten ready for bed before leaving my room to say goodnight to everyone. Then I saw my little brother crying so I went to go hug him and comfort him. I asked him what was wrong and he told me our parents "broke up" so I initially thought they just got into another argument and said they would get a divorce (they just say this). But then my mom walked in and told me my dad cheated on her and all of the sudden my whole world is shattering. I don't get how he could do this, but I'm not mad at all. I feel bad for him. I don't want him to see/hear me cry because I don't want him to feel bad. I don't want my little brother to cry, and seeing my mom break down was heartbreaking. She says she thinks she needs to move back to japan and that I should think about whether or not I want to go with her, but my whole life in in America. I don't want to live without her. I don't want to live away from anyone. I just need this to be a dream I need it to be fake. One minute we were laughing so hard we couldn't breathe, then the next they're going to get a divorce and I have to choose between them? What about my cats? They're my babies I'll stay with them no matter what. This is going to take a huge toll on them too because one of my parents is going to have to walk out of their life unless I somehow wake up and none of this was real or my parents decide to stay togethee. I'm sorry for making this so long. I'm just so angry at myself for wasting years of our lives arguing over the smallest things, years we had of being a happy family. It's only been a couple days since my birthday and now everything is so different. I don't know what to do. I'm going to fall so behind in school unless I somehow pull myself together. I have a test and missing work I need to get done for tomorrow but it's midnight. I can't sleep, I can't stop crying, my head is pounding, nf I'm so confusef. Has anyone been through this? Does anyone know what I shoulf do?