F… in the online affair world. I’ve had an in person affair and it wasn’t my fav.
I found the one.. the affair that sets the bar. Can’t stop won’t stop. All the feels. It was great. Exactly what I wanted\needed.
I’m having the hardest time finding it again. Not even “it” just not finding excitement. I thought it was an attraction thing. I’m usually the better looking one but I was obsessed with “the one”. But I’ve spoken to two very good looking men and didn’t feel it.. idk it’s almost of this feeling if I know how it feels with a physical AND emotional connection so anything else seems “meh”.
Can you still be in love with someone and move on? It’s been months.. so I’m fully ready for something.
Can lightning strike twice?! Is that all I’ll get.. the search is exhausting and honestly leaves me thinking of him more than I want to when things don’t work out with a potential.
I have no desire to rekindle. Sighh. Am I doing something wrong? I’ve vented before and someone said I’m just chasing new connections but I truly don’t enjoy the search, the thrill is finding that one person to put all the effort into. Am I cooked?