Hi!
I lost my phone and haven't had access to reddit for a while now (sad bigender noises). This means that I've been basically alone in this as I'm still closeted. That said, i've had some really great experiences that I just need to share with someone (which aparently is you - sucker!).
1. I finally found a shade of pink nailpolish I love. I've been wearing it regularly the last couple of weeks, and it feels awesome. No one has said anything (I had hoped to get compliments, but whatever). It's been so freeing to have pink squoval nails as an amab person, and it just being treated as normal. My hands and nails are one of my sources for dysphoria, so gettign the shape right (finally), and finding a colour I love really helped me there.
2. I've been trying out more feminine clothes, mostly at home. I found out that wearing a bra feels really nice (I need to get a bandeau though), and I have found some cute T-shirts I'm wearing around the house when I'm alone.
3. This is a big one for me. I have two tween/teen daughters, and they found out I have been using nail polish today. Kids don't always pay attention it seems.
When I asked them what they thought they just shrugged. Looks ok.
I asked them about the colour. Looks good.
Asked them if it was awkward to have a dad with nail polish. nah.
I think that's the best you can get out of tween/teen girls tbh. One of them said that I wasn't allowed to take her pink nail polish - which just made the whole thing feel so natural.
Sad bigender noises interlude - my wife also noticed the nail polish and immediately questioned it in a way that sounded really judgmental. That sucked. 😭
Back to the happy parts:
4. I've noticed that I'm moving more feminine now. Just minor things.
5. I've started wearing bracelets (mostly wooded beads and stuff like that), and I have been complimented there.
At the same time, I don't feel less masculine. I just feel more "both" if that makes sense.
Thank you for reading this, it felt great to share it with someone. ❤️ And it feels so good to finally be back here. I'll be going through all of your posts tomorrow to see what I've missed