Depressed and anxiety
Hello everyone in this forum, I have been severely depressed for the last 3 or 4 years. My mental health has deteriorated ever since a guy from work laced some weed that I smoked. It put me in a 30 day psychosis and I lost everything, my job, my car, my apt and my mental health. Since then I have been living with my mom in very tiny spaces like motels and now a tiny apt. The only thing I have done everyday since then is watch TV and sit there. We have no car so we have both been stuck and my mom said it best the other day. It feels like we are just existing, not living. Staying alive each day is a 24/7 battle and I have tried meds and been in and out of mental hospitals and none of it seems to work. I have a job now which I have had for the last 2 months which helps slightly because it keeps me distracted and I get to socialize with people but the second I get home my mind just races. My friends from the "good" days have all but forgotten about me and I do not even feel human anymore if that makes sense. I no longer feel like living and I find joy in nothing. Any advice would be greatly appreciated and I feel for anyone else who is going through something like this. Please please help