u/BandiDawg — reddlx

5 days bet free.. M 32.. Had a bad relapse after 6 months and naubos lahat savings ko last Sunday.. Na realize ko lang, isa sa naging easy way kung bakit nag relapse ako.. I transferred my savings sa Maya dahil sa high interest rate, this made it easier for me to cash in dun sa betting site na nalaruan ko.. When emotions are high and you're currently on a loosing streak sa gambling, mas mapapabilis cash in mo tlaga pag nasa e-wallet ung Pera mo.. Hindi kagaya pag cash or nasa bank account tlaga mismo, mapapa hinto ka pa saglit at magkakaroon Ng time mag isip.. Hindi kagaya pag nasa e-wallet, ilang Segundo lang cash in agad.. kaya never again.. Hindi na ako maglalagay Ng savings sa mga digital banks or e-wallet.. I will try alternative ways of saving money.. I'll do cash basis from now on, and savings ko diretcho sa wife ko.. Hopefully this can help me ma control ung Pera ko to avoid future relapse.. Do you have other ways in mind or ano ung mga nagawa nyo na na naging effective tlaga at nakatulong sainyo to quit gambling? 🙌

I just lost 106k last night.... M 32 years old..

6 months na ako Hindi nagsusugal after losing 300k last November 2025.. then nagawa ko makabangon, nakabayad mga utang with the help of my wife and my mother.. I started to be back on track and kept myself busy with work and playing guitar.. Naka self exclusion na din and Wala na ako access to almost all betting sites.. Lahat Ng ads at influencers about sugal auto block saken sa social media.. then come Friday night, April 24, 2026. I was just scrolling through FB reels, pampa tulog.. I saw this one famous food vlogger (cooking) babae sya at medyo sikat din naman. Di sya lantaran nag propromote Ng sugal. Pag open ko comment section to read comments about the food na niluto nya, I saw her pinned comment, may link Ng sugal website. I got curious (which I shouldn't have f***i*g done in the first place). To cut the story short, na access ko ung website. I just tried again for fun since may spare 600PHP ako sa Maya wallet ko. I won 12k that night, natulog Ng Masaya. Dinelete ung app. I tried to message ung customer service nung app para magpa block at isend self exclusion email ni PAGCOR pero Wala nag rereply so hinayaan ko na lang. Saturday afternoon, imbes na mag gitara, hinanap ko ulit ung site, to the point na hinanap ko pa ung vlogger para Makita ung link. Naglaro ulit, nanalo nanaman 32k. Sobrang saya.. natulog, Hindi dinelete ung app, kasi balak pa mag laro ulit.. So kagabi Bago matulog nag laro ako, 1k bet lang sa umpisa, hanngang natalo lahat Ng panalo ko almost 45k... Nag cash in gamit savings ko 20k.. nag bet ako 10k.. talo.. 10k ulit.. talo.. cash in 15k.. isang bet.. talo.. cash in 35k.. bet 15k.. talo.. bet 20k.. talo.. my mind went blank.. ung lahat na laman Ng savings ko 36k ni Hindi ako nag dalawang isip I cash in.. bet 20k. Panalo... Tinodo ko 40k... Talo.. last bet 16k... Talo.. grabe ung feeling ko, di ko alam kung ihahagis ko phone ko or sisigaw (which I can't do since katabi ko wife ko). I was ready to give it all in, biglang lumapit ung aso ko saken at dinilaan ung braso ko.. dun ako nahimasmasan.. I still have 20k sa payroll account ko na muntik ko na din ma cash in.. kundi dahil sa aso ko baka pati pang Gatos namin na cash in ko at literal na ZERO ako today.. I spent the whole night reading post about recovery. Eto nanaman ako.. ganitong ganito six months ago.. walang tulog til now. Break time sa work, lutang, di mawala sa isip ko ung talo ko, ipon ko for six months nawala Ng parang Bula.. nasusuka ako pag naiisip ko.. just a very small trigger made me lost big time again.. cycle never ends.. sana mag stick tong nararamdaman ko na pagkasuklam sa sugal para Hindi lang 6 months ko makayanan na Hindi mag sugal.. walang dapat sisihin kundi ung Sarili ko.. lesson learned the hard way.. again.. I was thinking na ni guide ni God ung Dog ko to stop me from making that last money bet.. feeling ko if na bet ko ung last 20k ko.. that's going to be the start of my new suffering just like 6 months ago.. non stop utang and non stop gambling.. sana makayanan ko ulit huminto at tuluyan Ng makawala sa sugal.. Thank you for reading this post about my foolishness..