I don’t enjoy anything anymore
I feel so lost and hopeless.
The only things i look forward to are eating and sleeping
I don’t find enjoyment out of reading, drawing, playing games, dressing up, cleaning, watching tv, going on walks… absolutely nothing anymore
I open a book and i can’t get myself to even read one page. I scroll through my steam library but not a single game looks interesting, i grab a pencil but i just don’t have anything to draw.
I’m tired. I don’t even find enjoyment in being with my partner. All i do all day is eat, scroll mindlessly cause it’s the only thing i feel like i have the energy to do, and then sleep.
my hygiene isn’t being neglected due to my OCD, but i kinda just resent everything.
Ive started seeing a therapist, every other monday. I want to see her more but she’s the only one available for in person sessions in my area that also takes my insurance.
I look over at my closet, full of clothes that aren’t pjs, and then i just wear pjs. I don’t have anywhere to wear anything.
I overall have always felt like an unlikable person, and being this way has made it a lot worse but i can’t bring myself to do anything to fix it
honestly i would appreciate advice, encouragement, suggestions, literally anything.
thank you for your time