I have diagnosed anxiety and OCD and right now I’m stuck in a really bad contamination spiral.
I’ve been dealing ants and a few carpet beetles in my house and even though I’m actively cleaning, vacuuming, and sorting things out, my brain will not let it feel “done.” I keep getting intrusive thoughts and mental images about bugs being everywhere or spreading, even when I know logically I’m handling it and it’s not even a full blown infestation.
It’s gotten bad enough that I’ve been avoiding my own washer and dryer and using a laundromat instead because it feels too overwhelming to use them because I found the carpet beetles in the laundry room in the first place. I can clean something and immediately feel like it’s not enough or I missed something.
My body is constantly in anxiety mode and my brain keeps looping on the same fears over and over. I also struggle with executive function, so when things pile up it just makes everything worse.
I’m just really tired of it and looking to see if anyone else deals with this kind of OCD spiral and how you get through it. Please no panic inducing information about carpet beetles or bugs, trust me I know alll the things and have done what I can do about it my brain just needs to be able to cope with it.