Dating As Guy In LA
You know I really haven’t much dating experience. I had a really tough time in high school with trauma that carried over to College, and some mental health issues that went forcefully untreated an exacerbated until I was 25. I’ve really spent then until now trying to get myself back on the right track (I’m 31 now).
Like last year I manage to produce a feature length film I wrote and directed. People even before sound, color and vfx have found it watchable.
So you know right now I’m just supervising the rest of post production while planning the next one. It seems like I’m in a fairly good place to start dating. I don’t know if my film in post production will increase my stature at all yet, but you know I accomplished something let’s say 90% of people chase a dream only to fail.
But then we get into actual dating. I tried speed dating because it was marketed as the better alternative to online dating. I got to say that’s false. You just try to have as nice conversations in 5 minutes, doing all the things that a guy is expected to do, showcase interesting qualities about you while showing interest in the other person, only to find out that you’ve completely struck out, and apparently this is really par for the course. Why did you strike out? You’ll never know. All you get is the opportunity to try again for another $35 or so.
So there goes in person dating meetups, time to hit the dating apps. If I’m going to get rejected, it might as well be from the comfort of my own home.
Well the thing about online dating is that it’s a grind. I don’t know if there’s any way that grinding will allow you to keep the enthusiasm that will be expected on you for a date. And even so far when I’ve gotten some matches there has been no response by the other person (well on Hinge at least. I haven’t gotten a single match on Bumble).
And you know this has only been my first month at this. My mental state is disappointed but still stable, just you know with some minor bitchy rants (let a guy complain from time to time please? Just a bit.)
But imagine a few months of this, that I think is really going to take its toll.
The other alternative I know of is going to more social events and finding partners there. Part of the problem is that a lot of my interests were developed in isolation, and the few that can involve others are more male dominated. Also it seems like it has become frowned upon using social groups as a means of finding dates. Another thing that I did notice from my speed dating is that you know I liked the women there, but none of them really seemed engaged in anything in the real world. I’ve been doing things that get me more politically involved like canvassing.
So yeah this whole thing is not starting to look like it’s going to end well for me. I don’t know what else to really do here. I don’t know what other options aren’t just dead ends.