I'm 23 and don't know what all is going on with me tbh. I know that I have OCD, of course, and PTSD. But I just figured out that what I've been dealing with is OCD. I'm just getting really frustrated. My main type of OCD is THE "Just right one I think", but it's rarely a direct thought, it's like something is just wrong with my body all of a sudden and it won't go away until I do some physical response super intensely. I don't always even notice I'm doing it sometimes because my brain is multitasking.
I pop my right ear and it hurts so bad
I'll blink my left eye and strain the muscle and give myself migraines
I'll twist my left arm out to the side to stretch this one specific muscle because it feels WRONG
There are definitely other things, but this is my main problem. I have these physical responses that make me feel worse but I can't go without doing. Then my mind thinks about how I'm never going to be able to stop and how in 10 or 20 years my right ear will be deaf and my eyes will pop out and my arm will get major arthritis and I'll just be in my own constant cycle of pain, relief, pain, relief, until everything is ruined :(