I have just been feeling all types of weird ever since I found out. I thought I was being careful. I thought I’d done my due diligence. Yet, here the hell we are.
I’m really pissed at myself. (Actively working on letting that go and to not be hard on myself.)
Testing positive caused me to feel shame about my own sexual activity and desires. I immediately started thinking, “Well, if you didn’t have sex with this person…”, “Why do you like sex so much? You need to chill.”, “You have too many partners.”, and “See, this means you shouldn’t be poly.” Yadda yadda yadda. Just spiraling.
It’s also made me feel horrible for possibly infecting my current partners. Just the thought of it makes me cry.
Thankfully the STI is curable. But, STILL. I hate this so much.
How did you handle having an STI?