Last year I went to ED treatment (PHP/IOP) and my treatment therapist was phenomenal. I got heavily attached to her and she knew about my BPD. I couldn’t see it at this time but she was the best therapist that I have ever worked with. Truly! She was tough AF and a very no BS therapist.
Flash forward to now. Almost a year since I met her. I’ve left my old outpatient therapist a few months after I discharged from treatment, got a new therapist and now this new one has made me realize… Every single therapist will always compete with my old treatment therapist and not matter what they will always lose because of how high my old treatment therapist set the bar for a therapist.
I’ve also come to realize… I want her and only her. All other therapists will never match up to her skills and ways as a therapist. Never reach the bar she set. I don’t want any other therapist. I want her.