Soooo the intention behind this belief was “I am lovable” regardless of who loves me… maybe trying to like break trauma bonds and anxious attachment but the way my brain is interpreting it is “I am lovable regardless” of what I do. And that feels extremely dangerous. But it’s not like I can undo this rewiring… I’m like yeah okay so I could just be a huge drug addict and I’d still be lovable like I feel all my boundaries or drive to do better are gone maybe??
Idk I just went through a major retransmission by trying to move back in with my (narcissistic) dad for like 2 weeks for financial reasons, then I straight up left. I feel like I’m becoming a huge asshole with no backbone or moral compass like I kinda feel like very very lost on my path all of a sudden. Idk if it’s the emdr or this dad thing or both.
Kinda feel like my brain is just empty. When I tell my therapist my concerns on some of the wording of the positive beliefs I think she thinks it’s just my “ocd” which I do have some of that but if my brain is interpreting it one way then it seems we should word things a little more clearly? Idk I’m really worried rn.
Thanks for any support