u/BabyJuniorLover

I've started EE evening schools 3 years ago, now i am 25yo. I learned tons of math, studied least physics and circuits analysis, now thinking of what is my next step. The only problem is i am from Belarus (country near Russia) and maximum pay you can get here is ~24k$ .

1. Start my bachelorus again but part time in Europe while working full time, finish it and get the job there.
2. Focus on making money in IT, then move to Europe (in around 5 years) to study bachelorus
3. Apply for masters (the least i want do, because my physics intuition is below zero)

The second constraint is that i need money to exist, somehow i should pay attention to work.

Since age of 16 I fall into depression. I didn’t realise that it was a depression until I get out of it at age of 23 landing a tech support role at international company with help of my second cousin. I am from CIS country, and classical jobs (engineering, med, finance) getting a salary of around 12k$ a year. My parents have 3 children and their (parents) income in total is 20k$ year all spent for house holding. I went for the degree at age of 22 seeing no other way with better proposition not to work minimal wage job at least which pays even the same amount of money (not more than 12k$ / year). Studied math with getting highest GPA, while working full time. Ended up landing AI engineering (just calling API’s, nothing to do with math) job in my country with much more stress and way less pay than before, hoping it will help me in the future with other roles. I fell back into depression, fearing not even finishing EE degree, expected to go study for masters and then realise I don’t even have money for this. I started to think bad about my life because on top I have ADHD (which bothers me a lot), and seems there no logical way out. Next considering of coming back to previous job, finish a degree with some results. And have no idea what to do next, the only way is relocation to Europe continue to work tech support role … I dreamed of having at least some expertise in something just for any case, but EE degree gotten here as from evening school doesn’t help a lot with career as you can see. I am also thinking of taking online masters from Colorado Boulder for Computer Science and master Linux, again just because I am interested and for the sake of it. Maybe one day pivoting into dev ops job.

What else I can do? Any suggestions? I am 25yo now and my timeline story is something like this:

I do now I am not yet coocked, but from perspective of where I am right now it feels I am almost coocked, I would be happy if anybody share their perspective.

Tbh I am think that my main goal is to treat the depression state, went for ADHD meds to Europe and grow from what I can.. But still it feels at 30y.o. i won’t be closer to landing any job. I feel as completely coocked person.

I started to feel desperation as soon as a bit rejection and failure entering my life…